HEARTS THAT ARE BROKEN
For a long time, after coming to Baba, I had wanted to have a ring made which would have the highest meaning for me. So when I lost my college ring, I had a gold ring made, beautifully engraved with the "Mastery in Servitude Avatar Meher Baba" emblem, surrounded by the symbols of the world's six great religions.
The ring was beautifully made and I cherished it because of its meaning. Seldom was I unaware of it. But one day, not long after acquiring it, I was swimming in the ocean at Virginia Beach. When I came out of the water to resume reading the legal material I had brought with me, I was suddenly shocked to realize that the ring was gone. It has slipped off my finger in the ocean. I was very upset at this loss because of the significance the ring held for me.
Several nights later, Baba appeared in my dream and with anguish I asked, "Baba, why did I lose my ring?" Baba looked into my eyes with great tenderness and said, "Henry, you need me not my symbols!"
I was no longer concerned about the loss of my ring. On the contrary, I was deeply grateful to Baba for giving me this valuable experience.
In 1969 I lost something even more important to me than my ring I lost the physical form of the God-Man. Although Baba had constantly emphasized to us the importance of finding Him within, His form was so beautiful that I had become dependent upon His physical contact and external guidance. When Baba dropped His body, the emptiness I experienced was so vast and painful that I felt as if the light had gone out of the world. Creation had lost its meaning.
Shortly after this staggering event, Baba appeared in my dream and I asked, "Are the hearts of your close ones broken?" Baba replied, "Hearts that are filled with love, when broken, only pour out more love."
SHOWERS OF GRACE, pp. 39-40, ed. Bal Natu
1984 © Bal Natu