TIME STEEPED IN INFINITE EAGERNESS AND PATIENCE
Time steeped in infinite eagerness and patience rolls on and, at the opportune moment, the aspirant begins to lose the awareness of himself as being a separate "self." Although awake, he becomes literally blank to all that can be seen in the six planes of consciousness and thus experiences infinite vacuum, or the complete "blackout" of the Nothing. Then, in an instant, he becomes fully conscious of God as Everything.
Consciousness of the Nothing is the Vacuum State. Consciousness of Everything is the God State. But this needs my grace.
One of the devotees interrupted, pleading, "So, Baba, we seek your grace."
In response, Baba replied:
No one gets it from his seeking or asking. You may be ready even to give up your very life for it, but with all this you cannot claim grace. How can you demand grace? The very desire to possess grace is a barrier in receiving it. It is an act of unbounded spontaneity.
However, in a sense you cannot love me without my grace, and as such all of the "experiences" you have are nothing but a game of my grace.
But grace as grace is quite different. It is not received in parts. It is infinitely indivisible and so indescribable. It is the whim of the fully conscious Infinite to make the apparently finite realize its Infinity. On the part of the finite it can be likened to a drop gulping the Ocean!
Baba then gestured, "Enough of this subject now. Only love counts. Is it not mentioned in the circular that you are not to expect any discourse from me? So let us have some songs now."
LORD MEHER, Online revised ed, p. 4749, Bhau Kalchuri
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