FROM ONE DISAPPOINTMENT TO ANOTHER
It seems as if the mind must accept the one alternative or the other. Yet it cannot wholeheartedly accept either. When it tries repression, it is dissatisfied with its lot and longingly thinks of indulgence. When it tries indulgence, it becomes conscious of its bondage to the senses and seeks freedom by going back to mechanical repression. The mind remains dissatisfied with both alternatives, and there thus arises one of the most vital and complicated problems of human life.
In order to solve the problem of sex, the mind must first understand that both alternatives are equally the creation of imagination working under the deluding influence of craving. Craving is implicitly present in the repression of sex as well as in its gratification. Both result in the vitiation of consciousness through lust or the desire for sensations. The mind is therefore inevitably restless in either alternative. Just as when there are clouds in the sky, there is gloom and lack of sunshine, whether it rains or not; so when the human mind is shrouded by craving there is a diminution of being and lack of true happiness, whether this craving is gratified or not.
The mind when restless with craving creates an illusory idea
of happiness in the gratification of desire and then, knowing
that the soul remains dissatisfied even after gratification of
desire, seeks freedom through repression. Thus searching for
happiness and freedom, the mind gets caught up in the opposites
of indulgence and repression, which it finds equally
disappointing. Since it does not try to go beyond these
opposites, its movement is always from one opposite to the other
and consequently from one disappointment to another.
DISCOURSES, 7th ed, pp. 99-100
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