REMINISCENCES, part 2:
SAI BABA LOOKED STRAIGHT AT ME
Thinking to keep me occupied with day-to-day activities, Jamshed encouraged me to cook the food for the two of us. Sometimes I did the cooking all right, but I did it as I did other things without knowing what I was doing. I can recall the particular bench in the Victoria Gardens on which I passed most of the time, sitting alone, entirely oblivious of the world and its affairs.
Although the infinite bliss I experienced in my superconscious state remained continuous, as it is now, I suffered agonies in returning towards normal consciousness of illusion. Occasionally, to gain some sort of relief, I used to knock my head so furiously against walls and windows that some of them showed cracks.
Nine months after my self-realization (November, 1914) I began to be somewhat conscious of my surroundings. Life returned to my vacant eyes. Although I would not sleep, I began regularly to eat small quantities of food. I now knew what I was doing but I continued to do things intuitively, as if impelled to do them by inner forces. I did not do things of my own accord or when asked by others. For example, when I began to teach (December, 1915) Persian to Buasahib, my mother tried to collect more pupils for me, thinking this would hasten my "recovery". But I would attend to no one else and continued to teach only Buasahib.
Later on (April, 1915) I also began to go for long distances on foot or by vehicle. Once I left Poona by rail for Raichur (more than three hundred miles south of Poona), but after traveling for only thirty-four miles I felt the urge to leave the train at Kedgaon. There for the first time I came in physical contact with Narayan Maharaj (one of the five Perfect masters) whose ashram is not far from that railway station.
Similarly, from time to time I was also drawn to see majzoobs like Banemiyan Baba at Aurungabad and Tipoo Baba at Bombay. Once in the company of Behram (Buasahib) I traveled as far north as Nagpur and saw Tajuddin Baba (another of the five Perfect Masters).
Finally (December, 1915) I felt impelled to call on Sai Baba, the Perfect Master among Masters. At that time he was returning in a procession from Lendi (in Sherdi), a place to and from which he was led everyday in order to ease himself. Despite the crowds I intuitively prostrated myself before him on the road. When I arose, Sai Baba looked straight at me and exclaimed, "Parvardigar" (God-Almighty-Sustainer).
Jamshed: Baba's late older brother. BACK
Food: It is an incredible fact that Baba did not eat for the nine months following his self-realization in January, 1914. BACK
Buasahib: The late Behram F. Irani, the first and one of the closest of Baba's disciples. BACK
LISTEN, HUMANITY, Appendix 2, pp. 247-249, ed. D. E. Stevens
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