THE ART OF SHELVING THOUGHTS
From what you write, I feel you are separating the functions of loving Baba and teaching rather than integrating them. Certainly children can be difficult, but you are also having problems with unruly thoughts and feelings, not only unruly children.
It is but natural; there's nothing much to worry about. But it is important that you learn the art of "shelving" thoughts, so that you can function effectively and not be so drained by your experiences in the classroom.
You have undertaken a most wonderful and exciting challenge — to transmit not only knowledge but, more important, the love of learning. Give each day to Baba; be earnest in your faith in Him. He knows best.
LETTERS FROM THE MANDALI OF AVATAR MEHER BABA, Vol 2, p. 116, ed. Jim Mistry
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